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Monday, October 30, 2006

Where is Waldo???

Hey everyone! Procrastinating on my homework (once again...big suprise eh). Oh well it's just ick. I have to do my vocab notecards for AP, memorize my skull bones for human bio (utterly hopeless), not to mention do some of my missing assignments. I also need to finish my essay on Marie Antoinette for extra credit for AP. Haha sadly I only have 3 paragraphs. Well random stuff thats happened so far. Went to the halloween dance Friday. No one was there but I hung out with Cathrine (spelled with C or K, idk?), Alex, and Shibley, a few other random people. It was alright. Saturday. Went uptown. Rented movies from the library (Kinky boots, Blue, Lagoon, and James Dean starring James Franco (soooo hot!)). I also rented a book and read it in a whole day! I felt so proud, I just sat there and read it from start to finish, didn't get up or move or anything. It was called Boy Proof. It was ok. After that I watched SNL with Hugh Laurie aka one of the hottest guys ever whos not in his 20's. It was pretty sweet. Sunday cleaned the basement. Took freakin forever. And todays Monday. Honestly people here just should riot against each other; it would give me an excuse to leave. My biggest accomplishment was not speaking for a whole hour (this is difficult in 3rd hour since KT, Nick, Steven, Erika and Mary are ALL in that hour). I'm considering the possibility that I should do it more often. Came home. Fell asleep. Woke up. Cullen was here randomly so I hung out a bit with him before he left and he showed me pictures of him in his "Where's Waldo?" costume that he wore to a halloween party. It was quite amusing. Said bye to Cullen. Carved a pumpkin...it's cute. That pretty much sums up the day/week/weekend/whatever. Proubly should go do my homework (damn). Not to mention practice my bass. Don't want to go to school tomorrow. Ick... school.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Party Green!

Ok. Today. Hilarious, misrable, funny, eh not too bad. Summary. Sure why not. 1st hour- watched Hotel Rwanda. Paul is so my hero. 2nd Hour- Steven just HAD to finish recording the info from the surveys. I guess thats ok though cause this means we can somewhat slack off tomorrow. 3rd hour- OMG!!! SOOOOO HILARIOUS! Our group all wore our t-shirts we decorated. We presented on Doug Campbell for the Green Party. Me and KT's shirt said Party Green on it and Nick's said I heart Doug Campbell (haha we decorated it for him). We also wrote the core values of Doug's campaign on the back of Nick's shirt, and the back of mine said "Don't get Arrested." since Doug was arrested for like refusing to leave a convention or something like that (idk). Anyways everyone loved our shirts and Mrs. Wade even took us to show us to Mr. Duffy. The yearbook people also took pictures of us. Haha they took like 3 of Nick. It was great. Hilarious! It was awesomely funny! Lunch- yay chicken noodle soup! 4th- Mrs. Grunwald made us switch seats AGAIN in pyschology! This is the third time so far. Plus Josh sits in front of me...he's tall...dang it. I don't want to ask to be moved though cause I sit next to Lindsay and that'd be sad if she moved me THAT far apart from my compodres. We watched a movie on advertising. It was ridiculous. I possibly might have fallen asleep. 5th- Oh snap. Bio drives me insane. Even more than pyschology. 6th- Ap World History. Test...didn't turn out so fantastic. Damn. Yeah luckily though I get to write about the movie Marie Antoinette for extra credit! Sweet! Well it won't help bunches, but it's better than nothing. And speaking of Marie Antoinette the strokes song "what ever happened?" which I have been addicted to since I've seen it on the Antoinette trailer now reached 50 plays on my itunes. 4 days ago it was at 26. Wow. And thats not even actually listening to it on the physical ipod itself. I got my new ipod today. They gave me a brand-spankin new one; ipod people said it was cheaper to buy a new one than fix my old one. Poor baby ipod. I'm gonna miss it (cries). So after school (and that random MUN meeting) I fell asleep on the couch while watching the Tyra show. It was somewhat interesting it was on how beautiful people get treated better. Fairly depressing as well. Sad but true eh? Thats the way it always goes. Anyways after that I went to my bass lesson which was sweet because it turns out I didn't loose my guitar tab but accidently left it there. It was fun; I learned a new riff. Afterwards Cullen picked me. We hung around the house a bit till we eventually decided to meet Mums at pizza hut for dinner. It was pretty sweet, we even got a desert pizza which wasn't half bad. Then Cullens headed off to school and me and mum for home and now I'm updating when I should be doing my AP homework! Right time to go do that now...
Quotes-
"I once had a hoodie...then someone stole it."-Nick
"Who wants to help me staple stuff?!"-me
"Go get the camera."-Mrs. Wade
"Land Before Time is the most awesome movie ever!"- Cullen
"Oh my gosh that's such a good picture of Ashley!"- Lauren in reference to the picture I took of Ash in my locker.
"Sometimes the rules need to be challenged."- Our caption under the photo of Doug getting arrested on our poster.

Convos-
"Did they ever make it to the whatcha-macallit place?"-me
"The Great Valley?"-Cullen
"Oh yeah thats what it's called! I remembered it was something valley."-me
"No, they got eaten by the tyrannosaurus rex. It ate Littlefoot first, than Petri, than Sarah, than Ducky and last Spike."-Cullen
"Not Ducky!"-me

Friday, October 20, 2006

Modern Context

Ok. Sorry I've been updating so much. I guess I just get bored on the internet. Oh well. Summary of today. 1st hour- worked on Seirra Leon project with Mary 2nd- Steven wasn't here (I called him later today but he didn't pick up, I'm somewhat worried about him, I hope he's ok). But anyways we just went over different kind of graphs...yeah over half the class had their headphones, was doing homework or just wasn't paying attention. 3rd hour- haha good times with researching crazy Green Party people in gov with Kt and Nick. Quite hilarious. 4th hour- I'm so pist that I did all that work. I stayed up late so I could work on that freaking project for pyschology. I didn't even have to present today...I could have done it this weekend. I freakin hate that psychology class. Lunch- haha, it was funny and ironic...enough said. 5th hour- Human bio...I failed the test...misreably. Damn. 6th- Turned in my note cards (aka vocab). Then we did current events. It was a fairly laid back class day. Sadly I do have some homework to do in that class. Which reminds me that I also deffiently need to cath up in psychology (I...hate...psychology). Also did picture retakes, hopefully they come out alright. After school me and Ash were gonna go see Nightmare before Christmas 3-D but it turns out it was in the Imax in grand rapids or something and we were like damn. So we just went and saw Marie Antoinette. I loved it! It was fantastic. Not to mention a stellar soundtrack. I love the commercial cause it plays the strokes "What ever happened?". As a result that song now has 26 plays on my itunes, from before when it was like 3 or something lol. It was a pretty sweet movie though. Glad I saw it. Can't wait to buy it on dvd.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

I shot Andy Warhol

Ok. I failed the human bio test. Misreably...and horribly. Despite that I did study. Damn. Completly ruined the day and it made me want to engulf myself in a pint of chocolate ice cream. Luckily my mood did get better when I found out I'm gonna be Spain for the lansing model un conference! YAY!!!!!! SPAIN!!!! Plus both the Ashleys (Ash M and Ash B) are in my committee. Ash M is Tanzania (I think), and Ash B is Saudi Arabia. But I'm really excited because I really wanted to be spain and I actually got it! Anyways so after school i did this weird interview video clip thing with Mr. Shaub about my favorite teacher and why, so he could use it for a presentation for like interns or future teachers. I said Mr. Preston and i told the story about how he gave me a bag of M&M's on my birthday. So yeah after that I came home and watched the movie I Shot Andy Warhol. And I gotta say that bitch is CRAZY (the chick who shot Andy Warhol)! She was like ultra butch feminist who like was really smart (ironically she majors in pyschology in college and later ends up in an insane asylum). Anyways she's like seriously set on destorying the whole male section of the human race I'm not even being sarcastic she SERIOUSLY does! Which honey i know guys are assholes but seriously a little TOO extreme. But Andy won't publish her stuff or anything and she shoots him. It's really weird though cause they were kinda friends and Andy like always sticks up for her and she shoots him! Andy Warhol though in the movie is hilarious he reminds me of a passive version of Willy Wonka. He answears everything really short answears and in a nice way like just literally yes or no answears with no further explanation. It was a pretty good movie. I had to sew up my g-unit jeans while I watched the movie (they got holes in the AGAIN), and my cub scout shirt so I can wear them for picture retake tomorrow. Anyways I also have to clean the basement and catch up on homework, so I better start now...especially since those AP note cards and that pysc project are due tomorrow!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

it never ended well

Ok I seriously proubly should update a little less often. But it's such a fun procrastination tool! Anyways today was fun cause Juniors didn't have to come to school till 11:20 because all the other grades were testing. So I got to sleep in! Yay!!!! Plus then after all of our classes were only 25 minutes. Pretty sweet eh? So yeah all day it was just finishing projects, listening to presentations, and stuff. It wasn't too bad of a day. I am still however horrified for the human bio test tomorrow! OMG it's over EVERYTHING we've done this year...I can't even remember what I did like 3 days ago. So after this post I'm gonna finish the study guild thats due in that class tomorrow and study some more. I also did make attempt to catch up on all this friggin psychology homework but I got half way through my vocab and somehow fell asleep lol. Anyways nothing else significant really. After school I watched the butterfly effect on FX, which I swear gives me the shivers everytime! I've never seen it from the very begining though. Plus it's kinda cool that the girls name is Kayliegh. So it's funny when Aston Kutcher is like I have to go save Kayleigh I love her! And I'm like awww thanks Ashton. It's like one of the only movies that uses my name granted even if it is spelled different. It's kinda sad that it never had a happy ending though. Anyways I'm gonna go study for science, I really want to do well on the test tomorrow. So till I need to procrastinate again I suppose.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

My psychology class is driving me insane

Ok. update i guess. Procrastinating on my psychology homework. And i counted all the vocab words I have to do. 42 freakin VOCAB words! Topped with 16 answear questions like identify the contributions of both monocular and binocular cues of depth, and explain the importance of vestibular senses and the functions of the two divisions. Yes this assignment was due today...I so did not finish...hence it will be late. Then she gave us another assignment thats due tomorrrow; it's 22 pages of reading with 9 follow up questions. Oh and lets not forget the group project she gave us which is due friday. My groups doing the eye and how it works and all that. But oh no it doesn't stop there! I still have two makeup assignments I still have to do in that class. If people ever wonder why I'm so irritable it's proubly because all that work is just for my pyschology class. I also failed (and still need to finish failing) my Ap world history test. Is it really my fault that I can't seem to remember which ancient civilization domesticated the chicken (yes this was seriously a question on the test)? You know what don't even even answear that question. Theres also a human bio test that I'm super nervous about this thursday. It's over everything we've done this year. Plus i don't often do well on Bartels test dispite the fact that I study. Things beside school were ok today. Steven was suprisingly here despite his car crash. I do feel bad that his car got wrecked, he worked so hard over the summer to buy it. I also went to my bass lesson which was pretty sweet. I told Don that I liked the who and he ended up teaching me the bass riff for summer time blues. Plus after my bass lesson I randomly saw Becca when I was walking home with my bass. Returned Breakfast at Tiffanys, rented I Shot Andy Warhol. Watched NCIS with my parents. I'm excited because tomorrow Juniors don't have to come to school till 11:20 or something cause all the other grades are meap testing HAHA SWEET! Plus I could use the extra sleep.Well this post is long enough I'll end it here.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Was Dorian Grey so bad?

Hello everyone. Well it is Sunday night. Friday seems like ages ago. Last week seems like even eons ago. Like an ice age came then it melted and then another ice age came and then it melted again, thats what it feels like. What would you call that? Would you just call it 2 ice ages? i don't know...oh well. Well I slept in extremely late, later than I should have. Cullens woke me and we went grocery shopping. Got some microwavable meals, my cookie dough, and I am super excited that we got some blueberry begals. We also got to listen to the new Killers cd Cullen had bought earlier this month. It's a pretty good album. The music is quite random and frantic I would say (I see London, I see Sam's town, holds my hand and lets my hair down). It's quite different from the 1st album. Todays been terribbly dreadful though and I have so much left to do. Study for ap, write my pyschology paper, write my english book report (I can't decide if I hate Dorian Grey or not), and i still have so much makeup and late work to do. Freakin Gov vocab, and some stupid assignments in crazy class (aka summerize articuls and draw and label picture of the brain). Wouldn't kill me to do those math assignments either or get ahead start on that human bio thing, or do my psychology vocab either for that matter. Plus when I over slept I had a horrible dream, I was in some form of a lunch line. I wanted some curly fries, but Ashley took the last curly fries, and I was like well thats ok I'll just get a cinnimon pretzel cause that sounds really good too, and then I was like wait theres no cinnimon pretzels! And someone was like I swore I saw one around here, and then I saw half of a cinnimon pretzel burried in with the watery corn. And they were like there it is. And I felt sad. Cause someone put the last cinnimon pretzel with the nasty watery canned corn serving dish thing. And there were no more cinnimon pretzels. dang. I did watch Desperate Houswives today. But it didn't make me feel any better. I kinda felt bad because nothing good happened to any of the charectors. And I don't care what people say, Bree is a good mother! Oh well I'm just ranting again. Ignore me. I'll whisper how the episode went to you during gov if you want KT. Well I better go I have alot of work to do and I should stop procrastinating by updating my blog. Hopefully tomorrow will be better despite that cursed Ap world history test, and other things planned into that cursed thing they call school.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Cheers to absinthe

Hey everyone! Greetings from my basement! Today is or possibly was Saturday October 14. I can't believe the weekends already half over if you think about it! I still have SOOOO much to do. Catch up on my crazy class, do that freakin English project, and lets not forget to study for that fan-tastic AP test I get to fail monday (It'll match my human bio test I failed friday...yay). I also have to finish cleaning the basement, but I at least cleaned the bathroom. I kinda felt bad I ruined my goal to practice bass everyday (forgot thursday), but I practiced twice yesterday and today so hopefully that makes up. Got re-addicted to the sims. I also watched Roman Holiday today. I think it's the first black and white movie I've seen since Citizen Kane. It was good but not half as awesome as Breakfast at Tiffanys. Although Gregory Peck is pretty cool. Another highlight of today was watching this Modern Marvels special on the History Channel on Distilleries (aka how booze is made). It was kinda funny cause they pronounced it like liq-core when most Americans and such tend to add an er to it like liq-er. But they talked about the ban of absinthe (aka the "Green Fairy" booze in Moulin Rouge). Sadly it's legal in most of Europe but not the US. Apparently theres a special way to drink it too lol. Oh and Daddy came home this weekend too! He gets around alright but I have a feeling he'll still be on bed rest for awhile so I've been trying to help out. Cullens is coming home tomorrow so we can go grocery shopping (which will be great cause than I can pick out my microwavable meals). Not much else going on. I feel utterly overwhelmed but eh thats kinda the norm nowadays. I miss my ipod too, Cullen says my baby's gone to the ipod hospital...oh poor baby. Well yup that sums it up pretty much! Till next time I suppose.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

No me sigas

Hi my compodres. Today has been a bit better than the rest of the week. I though it was cool cause I found THREE WHOLE PENNIES in gov class today on the ground! How awesome is that! I also found a clicky pen but sadly lost it today as well. Although today was better it wasn't fantastic. We all missed you in gov today KT, and now Nick is in our group so we have a group of like 6 people and we were supposed to be in pairs or groups of three haha. I had lots of work to do today though we got like 30 vocab words in psyco class and another 10 written question on top of it which need like a paragraph each or more to explain it. Plus we had a ludacris amount of note taking in AP World History. After school though I sat with Ashley so she could watch this lame/hilarious spanish detective movie for her spanish class; the acting was so horrible it was funny. I felt kinda bad though cause when I got home from school I fell asleep on the couch and didn't wake up till 8:30! So I missed that review class for AP that Mrs. Wade was doing for that test on Monday, which knowing me I proubly should have gone...damn. So I've pretty much accomplished nothing today, not to mention I still have to practice my bass it's my goal to practice it EVERYDAY so I can memorize all my notes. I did at least watch Grey's Anatomy since I promised Kara I would. I'll confess It's actually not too bad of a show although it is by FAR not nearly as amussing as House or Desperate Housewives. Anyways not anything to amazing or spectacular going on, just alot of work to do. i also still need to return my Audrey Hephurn movies to the library they are currently 2 days going on 3 I think late. Anyways after this I'm going to print out my news articul for AP and study for Human Bio. I really want to do well on the test tomorrow although granted I highly doubt I'm going to. I'm still gonna give it my best shot. I might even attempt to go to bed early. At least tommorrow is friday...although it's gonna be cold walking to school.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

If life were like a HelloGoodbye song

oh my god this week has been so hectic! and it's not even freakin over!!!! Right now I'm procrastinating/taking a break from my never ending AP world history vocab. I wish she would have given us this assignment over the weekend like she with her second hour ap class because it seems freakin impossible to keep up with everything. I have sooooo many things to do, for instance this vocab I'm sick of the freakin Parthians, and the Seleucids! Why do they need such fancy terms for such simple things! It's not that I don't like the topics but it's sooo much info I have to remeber. Not to mention I have that human bio quiz friday on the integumentary system. I seriously have to do well on that test. We also got another project in freakin psycology and we didn't even get to pick our groups, and I still have to do my missing assignments for that class. I have to do my English project this weekend as well (Dorian Grey you asshole). Not to mention several math worksheets. And of course I still havent finished the vocab in american gov...damn. It's so hard balancing all my homework, attempting to practice my guitar (seriously have to memorize my notes and scales I felt so bad that I didn't know them for yesterdays guitar lesson), and trying to help Mom around the house since shes with dad at the hospital most of the time. Things deffiently haven't been exactly easy. Dads at the hospital still but they might release him tomorrow (but then again thats what they said last week...). I got to see him today but I must say he is kind of a kill joy but I cant say I blame him. It's gonna be hard when he comes home though i think, me and mums will have to take care of him and keep up the house and stuff. I've been trying to help mums though cause I know she feels quite overwhelmed. I also broke my ipod (...again), Cullen was nice enough to take it into best buy for me and now it's being sent to be repaired or some weird shit like that. Plus I think today was the first day i didn't wear makeup to school. Thats proubly not very significant though and now I'm just ranting. A few visits from KT, and Kev though this week were pretty fun. Lol who's ticklish? And my new re-addiction to listening to HelloGoodbye and Billy Talent deffiently get my spirits up. Well I'm just looking forward to the weekend. Hopefully the rest of the week will go a bit better and if worse comes to worse I can always watch some old school movies to make me feel better. I could deffiently go for some Breakfast at Tiffany's or East of Eden.

Monday, October 09, 2006

The humor of telephones

eh...today was kinda shitty. For starters I really got to work on that english project...god damn the portrait of dorian grey. Orson Wells you are one messed man...but then again I shouldn't talk seeing as I'm me. Math was pretty fun, deffiently one of my favorite hours of the day. We're doing probability so it's not to hard and I have someone to talk to which is far better than some of my classes where I have hardly any friends at all, so it's actually one of the few highlights of the day. Gov wasn't too bad either. We just did stuff on the ammendments. We envoke the right to shoot you if you set one god damned foot on our property! I think after hearing KT's voice messages on her cellular communication device she should put the second amendment to good use. Lunch listening to Kt's phone...omg hilarious. 4th hour psycology...damn mother fucking packets of mother fucking reading...I hate mother fucking packets. Anyways 5th hour Human Bio, turns out I failed the test horribly (despite the fact that I did study...oh well). Turns out though I'm getting a 3.0 or like a 3.5 (aka better than i expected) in the class so that did make me feel a tad better. 6th hour Ap World History, lots of writing, wasn't much fun. Plus I learned that we have a test on Friday. I'm deffiently gonna study, I want to do well on it. Had a few friends over after school...hilarious times with cell phones enough said. Ummm then I just sat around and contemplated the day and significant events really. Eventually I made myself coffee and listened to Breakfast at Tiffany's on vinyl. Everything sounds better on vinyl. Watched the ending of Dead man on Campus, it was pretty funny. Went uptown and bought some pop. Came home...bored...nothing unusual. Proubly time to do my homework now. Or at least watch my other Audrey Hephurn movie that I need to return tomorrow. What I would give for a trip to Tiffanys right now!

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Ten dollars at Tiffany's

What ten dollars will buy you at Tiffany's

Hello. Greetings...all that jazz and such I would suppose. Off the top of my head deepest sympathies to KT...sorry about creeps...ewww...webbervilles homecoming sounds like it sucked serious ass. Weekends been hectic and short. Friday I donated blood. i felt really proud a whole pint! Granted though I think I might have fainted at the end...not really sure...oh well I was fine eventually. And Kt tell your madre that yes I drank plenty of water and not very much pop (half a can of sprite and 2 bottles of water and no i didnt even open the the can of coke she saw me with). I would have drank more water but I slept almost all the day away and unfortunatly cannot drink water or any thing else that matter when I am unconcious on the couch. I saw Mrs. Way in the hospital when I went to see my dad. He's doing a bit better but they're concerened his spinal fluid or something isn't draining fast enough, we're just hoping they don't have to opperate. I pinned up the coloring book page I had colored earlier of a dancing milkshake to his bullitin board in his room. Hopefully it'll make hime feel better. Saturday...ummm...trying to remember. Oh yes I remember Ash and a few other compodres unexpectidly came over. It was quite amusing. Played some street fighter on the super nintendo. Stayed up way too late. End of Saturday. Today worked on my political comics for my gov project. Watched Breakfast at Tiffany's which is now one of my new favorite movies! I absolutly adored it! Audrey Hephurn is so sophisticated. I must say she was fantastic in it and it was better than when I watched Funny Face. It was so terribly romantic and the ending is just to die for. Her charector in it was so fun I loved it. Anyways I also did alot of sewing today I sewed part of a shirt on to another, which took awhile but now it looks really cool. I also sewed all the buttons on this one pair of pants, the entire butt pockets were lined with buttons, it's really cool looking. Me and Kara also watched Desperate Housewives. I could really relate to alot of the charectors on that episode. I should proubly end this post here, I have a feeling that my feelings will lead me to say something I will regret. Best forget about it eh. I think Audrey and I need to have breakfast at Tiffanys. It's just that kinda day.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Why you should put rocks in your purse

Greetings!!! Ok update on shit so far.
-Who Concert. AWESOME! Sadly the didn't play The Kids are Alright, I Can see for Miles, and Pictures of Lily but this all ok because of two words...Baba O'Riley!!! Plus they played the who are you song which was pretty sweet. Shirts kinda pricey (I got 2 I'm getting one for christmas), Peter freakin Townsend (yeah he did do the windmill guitar playing thingy too! If anyone understood what I just meant at all...), and of course lots of HILARIOUIS drunk old people. I seriously saw an old lady wearing a peach turtle neck shirt drunk and dancing with her drunk bald husband...it was ummm interesting/funny/disturbing/odd. But I have only one question to ask, are the kids gonna be alright?
-My Dads been in the hospital for the past week, he got in a nasty hockey accident and hit his head against the boards REALLY freakin hard. He was going to be released sooner but then they realized he was leaking spinal/brain fluid today and so he has to stay for another week. He also has to go to detroit for eye surgery (double vision). We think he's gonna be ok but I do miss him. I talked to him a few hours ago on the phone and he told me to quit procrastinating and work on my political comic project for gov.
-5th grade camp today I was a counciler with KT. Highlights including doing some other kids tin cut out (which was actually fun), crazy "french" fur traders and a lady who pretends to be a 400 year old indian (Dam beavers), sawing logs (wicked sweet!), THE PIRATE GAME!!! (Captains Coming, At Ease, Ships, Sailers, Seasick, HIT THE DECK!!!, man overboard, 3 men rowing, 4 men eating, 5 men pointing north.), watching Dan Nix trying to climb the rock wall when the pegs are small and made for 6 year olds with extremly tiny hands and feet (also followed with a 5th grade girl calling Dan a sissy), Kt's extremly friendly 5th grader (yeah he totally wants to buddy up with you), camp songs (Magalina Hagalina, roll call, hmmmm cold spagetti) and of course bee-wax candles (yeah my candle turned out...ummm...interesting.). Anywho it was a fun time. Tre awesome.
-Went to the movies with Ashie today (after Panda Express of Course). Saw School for Scoundrels. Was pretty funny...terribly romantic in a way I guess too. Save the lobsters.
-Uncle Pete has been here for the past few days, he gave me a pair of old pj pants that melanie gave him awhile back. There pretty sweet though I like them alot.
-I REALLY need to go do my homework and study for my human bio test tomorrow.
-Damn this is not a short post.