Bitches Aint Shit

Man things are offelly hectic lately. I've been getting ready for college and it just seems like theres always something to do. It's annoying. My mom nagging me all the time. And now the fam is trying to guilt me into going upnorth for a vacation and I'm like HELLO! Am I the ONLY person whose thinking?! I leave for college in week! I half to clean (my room, the basement, other random places where I stash my clutter...), I have to pack up all my stuff, I wanna at least see my boyfriend once this upcoming week, and my pal Nick cause he's just about the only friend I have in the world cause most everyone else I know are two faced bitches. And there like but what about FAMILY time and I'm like family time is great just not the week before I have to move into a dorm room when i'm rushing around doing everything! Not to mention tomorrow is my last day working at 7-11 and I'm sooooo bummed cause i LOVE my job. And its even more hectic cause thats my last day but I really wish I could work next weekend too cause quite frankly I could use the cash and so now I'm browsing Craigs list looking for gig jobs that aren't too sketchy. Uggghhh man life is...bitchy...

I don't need to be shown the door

You know what I don't understand? How do people get like thousands of other people to read their blog? How the hell does that stuff catch on? Is it just like one guy reading a blog being like wow this a sweet blog and him telling the other 1,999 people they ought to read it? I was just thinking bout it cause that's what Diablo Cody did and now she's like this high ranking writer/celebrity. Maybe I should just ask Diablo Cody. Idk I was just curious about it. I think my life is too mundane to be morphed into a famous blog since I'm not willing to share my own corrupting information with the world. I guess I could write a fictional blog but eh I don't think I ooze that much creativity out of my pores. Which reminds (not really but anyways...) don't give me your loose change at 7-11 after I already opened the register and am about to hand you your change. It's really annoying and I suck at doing basic math in my head, so please be a polite customer and just don't do it.

The era of blues

So I suppose it's been awhile since I last updated, specifically since August...yeah I guess that is a rather long time. I suppose the reason I don't bother updating sometimes is I'd rather people not know that much about me. On the other hand though I feel compelled to wright shit down and quite frankly I'm too lazy to keep a steady diary (believe me I've tried). My basement is friggin freeee-aazing, I seriously want a hoodie. That and a cup of coffee. I probably ought to start on my AP U.S. history notecards. But ugh I so don't want to. Honestly I should have never taken that class, AP World History was way better anyway. Mom and Dad are getting on my case about my grade in that class though. In all fairness I'm only missing like three assignments but Wade's grading scale is kinda wacked so it somehow managed to bring my grade down significantly. I don't think my parents realize how much work I have to do in that class. Plus I'm sure having to go to Grandpa's funeral probably was the cause of one or two said missing assignments, after all I missed two days of school. I've been kinda down lately. I've come to the conclusion that I have no friends. They're all too busy backstabbing me, betraying me or each other, abandoning me, or potentially plotting each others murders. They all hate each other, or me which hence causes me to often hate them. I find it a rather poisonous lifestyle, and questionably hazardous. I have decided I have nothing to really look forward to. I mean after all Grey's Anatomy isn't even playing new episodes every Thursday. REALLY, HONESTLY, what is there to look forward to AT ALL in my life. Not even shoes can repair this type of damage. I go to play practice and I didn't even get a part in the play. Well it doesn't help though that the same people get parts almost every year. I mean even in Bragles fall production people who DIDN'T even try out for parts GOT the parts. Seriously... not even kidding. Not to mention my play got rejected from the playwrights competition that I had to enter for A.P. English. Well at least it made it to the semi-finals. But still they sent me my rejection letter late. I found out I wasn't accepted when Kathryn told me that all 6 of the finalists showed up. I'm glad Kathryn won though. She deserves it fo' sho. But you would THINK someone could send a rejection letter in a timely fashion but I guess not. For some reason I'm never in karma's favor and I still have yet to conclude what I did to piss her off, cause it still doesn't make any sense to me but whatever I did I guess I deserved it.

waiting for my laundry

I had such a weird dream last night. Like I was on this weird mission thing to to find some guy who was like an arms dealer or some kind of dealer or some sort of warrior, eh i can't quite remember and then Denzel Washington was chasing me cause he was a cop and I was randomly in France admiring the Effil Tower and then I had to go to Morocco (cause thats where the guy was). And I don't know if Morocco looks like it did in my dream but I kinda hope it does cause it is SOOOOO sweet looking. Like everythings red and orange and there were cactuses and really vibrant colors. I don't know why that sounds awesome but believe me it was totally awesome. So I found this guy and he's sword fighting some other guy in a plaza with no one else around be me him and some random guy he's sword fighting with. Anyways he tells me to go to New Orleans to find buried treasure. So I go to New Orleans and honestly in my dream New Orleans looked alot more like Jamiaca. I seriously doubt there is that much sand in New Orleans...So I brought Cullen with me to help me find the treasure and I called Kara cause apparently she knew some of the treasures where-abouts. So I go digging on the beach and I find all these cool stones that kinda look like emeralds and saphires and everntually I did find the the treasure thing but I opened it and it was empty. And then I found some Calender with pictures of all the previous people who had found treasure before me and of course Green Day was in it. And then I went out to breakfast with my family. I feel like this dream is missing a lot of detail that I don't remember. Oh well. So I think I'm gonna go read or play DDR cause I haven't done anything productive today and I'm still waiting for my clothes in the dryer to dry.

To be sought

It's official; I've gone mad. I'm so going insane and nothing quite makes sense. Like that one time I tried to eat that potato earlier. ughigjgjhj don't even ask. And like whats with my obcession with that pillar of salt song. I don't know. I have random spaz attacks and suddenly act like I'm 5 and need to kill 50,000 grams of sugar in 5 seconds by jumping repeatedly. I'm just admiring the fact of how good my hair smells. I got out of the shower four hours ago and my hair still smells good. And it's all soft and cute looking for some reason. I don't know nothing really makes sense. Although I do feel clean. Thats pretty good. I feel clean. It's weird cause since I feel clean I feel rather careless. I don't know exactly how those are supposed to be related. I almost feel innocently clean. Hmmm once again doesn't make sense. My thoughts are too overly occupied. I'm glad whenever I can find a distraction. Like for instance when I watched Road Trip yesterday or ran errands today. I kinda want to go out running. Oh I so just take that back. Maybe I should jump around some more. Maybe I should go play DDR. Nah I take that back too I don't really want to get all sweaty I'm too clean feeling. I like being distracted though cause I don't like to think too much. If I'm left with my thoughts to long my thoughts start getting the better of me. If I can jump from one thing to another I can do things quicker. And if I'm quick I don't have to think. Nobody thinks when they're quick and if you think you can you are so lying. Thinking for me is like pouring salt on your wounds. I'm always thinking of things that are never going to happen. It's just such a waste. It'll just make me miserable. So I like being distracted. I get more done anyways, like my reading or talking with friends. Oh damn I should go to bed it's already 4:40 in the morning...

The next Dr.Grey

Well another blog update...

I know alot of interesting stuff has happened but I can't seem to remember anything. Haha but I rarely ever do. Well Wensday was Kara's birthday. Then on Thursday I hung out with Kendra. I had such a weird sleep scedual though. I went to bed REALLY late, partly cause I couldn't get to sleep. I think I finally fell asleep sometime between 4 and 5. Then I ended up waking up at 7 in the morning to which I rolled over fell asleep again and woke at 9 to which I rolled over and fell asleep and woke at 10:10-ish and then I felt bad cause I was supposed to go to Kendra at 10. Well I was late needless to say but I eventually did get there. It was a good time, I met Kendra's semi-cousin, and her new lover-boy Brian; Sadie and Misty who I know were also there. We just hung out and had convos while not paying attenion to the movie 300 on the screen. We later went swimming. I didn't want to go but eveyone just decided to get me wet to the point where I might as well be in the pool. So I went swimming despite the fact I had a dress on. And that was followed with an extreme never ending game of Marco Polo. I had to leave by noon though on my mothers request that I come home and clean.

On Friday I hung out with KT. It was fun we played DDR and guitar hero. I had to leave in the middle of the game upon Mother's request that I go grocery shopping though. I was glad to see KT though cause I missed her and haven't seen her. Not to mention she'll be leaving soon for band camp again...

Today was Kara's party. I woke up late, took a shower, came downstairs and outside to say hi to everyone to which they threw me in the pool with my clothes on lol. It was fun though.

I've spent most recent times though, in thought as I most frequently do. I was thinking about how I'm not looking forward to things. For instance my friend Nick will be leaving soon for Michigan Tech...I'm gonna miss him. I already feel overwhelmed with school work but school hasn't even started yet (AP classes). And how I'm keeping my hair long for senior pictures, and in case I want/even get a decent part in this years school play, even though I really want to cut it ridiculously short, even though it'll probably make me less attractive or whatever that cliche is with guys only liking girls with long hair. Don't really care anyway. And today I watched the last episode of season two of Grey's Anatomy. It was soooooo depressing. Danny (Izzy's fience) died. I swear the only thing more depressing that I've ever watched on dvd has got to be East of Eden. Not to mention it kinda sucks now cause I don't think they have the most recent season out on dvd yet (they'll probably wait to put it out till friggin christmas). It's kinda upsetting cause then I can't catch up for the new season in the fall. Not to mention Becoming Jane isn't in theaters around here and I really wanted to see that. What I am looking forward to though is hopefully hangin out with Krissykins. Hopefully I'll also see Nick soon too cause I want to hang out with him before he leaves. And I'm also liking the book I'm reading for class even though I'm terrible at reading and it's such a long book. I'm looking forward to tomorrow though. I'm thinking maybe I'll go out and about or at least make some phone calls and talk to some friends.

Those silly little synaps of mine

Well the past while has been exciting and utterly not thrilling at the same time. Came home from up north. Good ol Lake Michigan. I'm uber happy to have cell phone service again though. Ummms lets see, yesterday I went shopping. I bought part of Kara's bday present. She's gonna be 24! I'm gonna really miss my sister when she moves away. We've become rather close. She's even gotten me to listen to country music. I've spent a good portion of the past few days reading. I've also taken up a new quirk to my absurd personality and have started reading classic literature to my goldfish Monster. Spent the past two or so days feeling sullied and unusual. A rather concoction of melancholy, confusion, bitter, and pensiveness. I've been in a rather odd state of mind more the less. It is occasionally humorous and actually rather productive for a change. However normally I am so unproductive that when I say productive it means more of I have become productive to the point for where the average person would be common or just satisfactory not necessarily extraordinary. I shall not go into too many examples of my productive, destructive, determined thinking nor shall I go into detail of sulkiness or my latest traits would declare me mad or insane. I'm simply embracing every minute of it with the up most enthusiasm and admiration. Besides I'm sure it's not that exciting to tell anyways. Today has been interesting though. I went and saw No Reservations with KT and Ashley. Twas amusing. I must say it was good to have company, and the movie was entertaining as expected. Afterwards I went online for awhile but Cullen asked me to play guitar hero with him and I simply could not refuse. After that Kara, Cullen and I started a game of monopoly but gave up shortly after 20 minutes or so to which we then watched an episode of Big Love on HBO. Kara has got me hooked on the show and I find it rather interesting and am greatly looking forward to the new episode tomorrow. It's a show about a polygamous family. The main character has 3 wives and they all live in separate houses next to one another. I really like the show. Plus it's nice having a show to watch on account of most the shows I enjoy won't start till the fall. Which reminds me that Target already has the "back to school" section up...freakin pencils.